The sensation so strong
I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant the warm sensation
My heart empty
My soul torn apart
Lying there; wondering where I went
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined
The sensation of fear of what's to come
Slowly the reality over powering
The lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty
Confused on how to think or feel
The loneliness I feel
So wretched and compelled
Betrayal to myself
Revealing the terrors ......
It has been like 6 years I've not travel..
in between obligation to the kids and tight budget, hehehe
So its going to be a big deal for me if not for some of you....
well, I"M EXCITED..!!
My hubby is already waiting for me in KK..
After a long period of distance and followed by an accident, how do you suppose not share the moment of being reunited again. For us, or as least for me... distance makes the heart fonder!! InsyaAllah..
Exactly One week of not sharing.....
I've been too preoccupied after my hubby arrived last Tuesday n a lot of happenings...
and the day always start with his cup of black coffee as usual..
Took my hubby to see a Homeopathic Physician for the Acupuncture Point Treatment for two days on the row and he is taking homeopathic medicine and really its working just like it used to.
But he is still on pain killer for he teared a few tissue at his spinal bones, so it was estimated that he will feeling pain for these 2 -3 weeks till the tissue recover, which I hope it would be sooner....
For quiet sometime now, I've been meaning to post something sweet about my other haft, that's my darling hubby but never the less have I expected that it would be related with bad news.... anyway although i've mention that i'm sharing only good things here but in the end I decided, its still a' bit-n-piece' of me, so.........
His job? He's always abroad....that's what he does. And when he is outside the country, he will call us few times or maybe the most less is once a day.......! So as it happened, last Friday he called me telling that he was on his way to the mosques for his Friday prayers......
then that was the last time we communicate!! Sure I was worried sick, I tried calling him, text him and I even sent him an email which I waited for an answer in vain.......!! Saturday.... then Sunday came and go, still no news.....can you immagine the agony.....!! : ( Alast, Monday morning, I got this sms.....saying,
.......'Just 'on' the fon. I got all ur sms. Just discharge from the hospital. After Friday Prayers n lunch, I took a bus back. I was standing when the bus suddenly brake n I plung into the railing at the driver n thrown to the stairs. They took me to the hospital n was admitted until this morning. x-ray says ok but my back really in pain....'
WHAT..?pphheeww....... how would u react to that? would u take it as good news or bad news? I don't know....... but I can only say thank you 'ALLAH' , it could have been worst, and asking nothing else but hoping that my family will always be together in health, love and appreciating whatever we have......
My hubby, he is still in the Manila, having to undergo therapy till next week......
and all is well now! Alhamdulliah.
ta-daa..... my man, Jamail(49)!! very ambitious, smart, funny n loving hubby/daddy...
I wanted to find some words ... That would help you get thru it when life gets so hard. When it seems you can't bear it, and perhaps can't go on, When deep in the heart there's no trace of a song. Words to give strength, But what are the words you so need to hear? That will help and will heal and remove all the fear, That builds up inside 'til you can think clear... What are the words that will lighten the load? If only I knew the right words to say. To encourage and Bless you or comfort some way. I know not the words but this I can do., I shall offer up Prayers......n for now.....